who can i trust?
I'm waiting for a phone call every day, I check the mailbox every day to see if you have sent something. some days are harder than others. I wish you were here. nothing is as it was. I think of you every day, every hour, every minute and every second. sometimes it just feels like a living nightmare, and I just want to wake up, I try and try but I can not because this is the reality, my reality. many have chosen and leave my side, it hurts. people talk bad about us, it also write on my blog, I do not know who they are just that they live in the town. do i know them? is there anyone who is close to me? a friend?I feel I can not trust anyone... you have always protected me from the evil, and now I feel so helpless, who will protect me now? I miss you so much it hurts and I want to scream until the pain go away....
